Sentimental
[Quicksand]
I really like this song by David Tao ^^
Not really just passing by,
Not really don’t miss you anymore,
It’s all not real, just me lying to myself.
I actually still love you, loving you.
I thought I have thought it through,
Somehow out of my control, subconsciously, I went on the old trail.
Let me see the happiness I had once more.
Love is a quicksand. I won’t struggle to get out.
Let it be, I am not afraid.
Love is a quicksand. I don’t want to let go,
the worries about you in my heart, OH BABY~ let me be this way.
Love is a quicksand. I won’t say a word.
I’ll wait for darkness, when my tears may fall.
Love is a quicksand. Even though I know I should avoid it.
I still couldn’t help myself to get out, OH BABY~ I am the silly one.
I kept trying and trying, and wronged and wronged again.
I took a step, another step, another step, another step, another step into the quick sand.
Let me be this way.
[Every cloud has a silver lining]
when I am lost in the dark clouds,
you spread your wings and guide me out,
finally i saw the silver lining in the clouds,
thank you for you had just show me the way,
now I finally knew my destiny,
for you I realised,
how lucky I am.
[Monday the 30th]
If opportunities are like stars in the sky, I feel like I am so close but I can never grab it.
If emotions are like roller coster, I felt so high the day before and so low today.
If I could make a choice, I choose rather not knowing.
Don’t make promises if you dont meant to,
Don’t give hope if you dont intend to,
Don’t talk big if you act small,
Dont’ drag me if you are not bring me anywhere.
Lost in sea
it was like lost in a wide sea,
floating to nowhere,
there is no land within the sight,
slowly she drown,
into disapointment,
she close her eyes tight,
restlessly giving it in,
to the fate she bow,
she know she have lost,
at the moment darkness covers her
to be continue…
[literature time]
the darkness fills the clouds,
shadowing figures of happiness,
leaving humankind in blindness,
searching in the dark,
life of darkness is not bad indeed,
pinning a mission in every soul,
in search for the true light,
light that would guide the road,
road of finding a true self,
if you found yourself running in the dark,
never be afraid,
as you are not alone,
keep running like never before,
if that is what call life,
i think i have learnt to embrace it
(no subject)
It was snowing again (was enjoying the snows fall thru the glass wall in the dinning room as i blog) after a rain wash overnight which wash away most of the snows which is almost 5 inches thick yesterday… it was fun to have snowball fight with the boys… 3 versus 1 (me)… 
so unfair right but i guess i manage to make some really good attack… continues close combat snow war i think i was acting like a robot grabing snow down, throw in front, grab down, throw in front… i think i did this continuesly till i lost my breath…haha…nice one. Total workout and fun too. Manage to make a really huge snowman with H** and i mean big is really big… taller than H**… 120cm maybe? plus and minus around that height. Now it really feels like Christmas as there is lots of snows although they are like “Now you see it, Now you dont” thingy… snow can form overnight and also can be wash away overnight. Guess this is the nature flow. Things come and go… ok not going to too sentimental talking now… just has this kinda of feelings…
To the blue star
Blue the color of happiness
Blue the color of laughter
Blue the color of lovely
Blue the color of sweetness
Blue the color of being in love
Blue the color of missing
Blue the color of internity
Blue the color of togetherness
Blue the one i will and always will ^^
Tagged
1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Matias… he is so funny 
adorable finn boy 
2. What were you doing at 0800?
having breakfast
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
having dinner of smoked salmon, baked potatoes and carrots, drinking milk, eating cucumber and red pepper chilies, plus banana….haha…not that many for dinner
4. What happened to you in 2006?
busy with final year project, graduated, have fun with mummy, some flirting sections, get job, work and work… erm…
5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
I love to eat Salmiakki ice cream (Finns black ice cream)!!! The one i had at Melaine house is the best!!!
6. How many beverages did you have today?
water and milk
7. What color is your hairbrush?
black
8. What was the last thing you paid for?
cheese burger for only €1…wow..that’s cheap
9. Where were you last night?
at home drawing and painting my plain white shirt
10. What color is your front door?
grey
11. Where do you keep your change?
purse
12. What’s the weather like today?
cloudy and windy…i miss Mr.Sunny 
have not see him this whole day
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Salmiakki!!! available only at Finland…i think…haha
14. What excites you?
going for trips, going for dates, getting surprises drawing and painting on fabrics ^^ (new found hobbies) and sauna and lakes and summer cottage and lapland and …. a lot a lot maybe adding to the list is checking out some cute funny Finn guys
15. Do you want to cut your hair?
need it long to keep me warm and help me survive for the winter (heard is like -30 degrees =.=)
16. Are you over the age of 25?
nope….i look younger than my actually age ^^
17. Do you talk a lot?
yeah…i cant keep my mouth shut cause i scared got worms will grow if i close my mouth too long and i think silents makes the situation very awkward….someone need to talk!!!
18. Do you watch the O.C.?
nope… i watch Pimp My Ride abt modifying selected candidate’s car
19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
yup too many steven… too comman name though
20. Do you make up your own words?
yeah…especially when i sing mandrain or chinese songs (i dont know how to read them so i just sing what ever i feel like as long as the rythm is right…who cares )
21. Are you a jealous person?
depends on what matter but i seldom
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
Amanpreet…cause she was always in front of me when PMR/SPM exams cause we sat according to alphebatical order when in secondary school
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Kiyo Yip Wai Yee… bao bei dear
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Anu
25. What does the last text message you received say?
Wear red tmr to show support to Burma friends
26. Do you chew on your straw?
yup…i just love to
27. Do you have curly hair?
nope not naturally but i did curl them once and it last for only a month before i straighten it back
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
my bed?…hehe sleepy…just had a long day at Helsinki
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
erm… i dont remember rude ppl….hehe…i just remember ppl who is nice to me
30. What was the last thing you ate?
banana
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31. Will you get married in the future?
yup…if someone wants me…hehe
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
The Pursuit of Happiness…really nice…so touching
33. Is there anyone you like right now?
it was easy for me to like someone but not love someone im flower heart (FAH SAM)…hehe
34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
after dinner…just dump them to dish washer machine…hehe
35. Are you currently depressed?
no… definitly nope… im so enjoy and relaxed at this moment of my life…never found so much peace…finally!!!
36. Did you cry today?
does tears that drops when u yawn counts?
37. Why did you answer and post this?
cause my lou po zai Mimi tagged me and i think is fun to answer these questions
My wish by Rascal Flatts
Found this very meaningful song… i guess everyone has a dream of their own but the question is how many has go after their dream?
To your DREAMS stay BIG & your worries stay small
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I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you’re faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin’ till you find the window,
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,
But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God’s grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.
But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big
Butterfly – Hu Die
originally sang by David Tao. Translate by me ^^… roughly this meaning la… some lyrics i add in, some i din write (because i dunno d meaning…haha..banana ma)
The world is lika a cold dark fridge
There is no warmness in my pulse
I start questioning what is the reason for my existence
In the eyes of others Im nothing but invisible
Is it once I fail, I can never stand up?
Who is going to save this dying soul of mine?
but it changed when I meet you
Everytime I see you
I found peace in my soul
like a butterfly flying freely
I can continue living
I can find back my courage
Your love help me breath
I could breath again… I’m reborn
because you never willing to give up on me ^^
In life there is a lot of problem
Like a maze… no escape
Everytime I find an excuse to escape
but you never give up on me
Everytime I think of you
My world is bright like sunshine after rain
Butterfly flying freely in the sky
Its so beautiful… like a miracle
You bring me to a world where I can be myself
Everytime near you
I feel calm
You look into my eyes… no doubt
Your trust to me enable me to reborn.
No matter how difficult is life
I can move on because I have you
Loving me is not easy I know
You share my pain
You took my tears away… giving me only smile
I can keep going on
I can forget the past
I will cherish and always love you
Your space in my heart no one can replace
You are the one and only…
Shi Jie Mo Ri
Want to laugh to disguise the tears that’s flowing
Nod my head to admit that I’m afraid of the dark
I only wish that you can spare some time for me
But you don’t even give me the slightest sympathy
Want to cry to see if I’m dead with out emotion yet
It’s like in the whole world I’m the only one who’s exhausted
Doesn’t matter, because even if I’m down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with
Just wish that desperation will go away
The sky is gray
Will it make me forget who you are?
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them
My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will
Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?
My world is about to be destroyed
Maybe being blue is…~ another sort of beauty
… this is the song that i keep on playing again and again at office or at home. I have heard it before but din really listen again for so many years.
It was Shi Jie Mo Ri (The End of the World) by Jay Chow from his FANTASY PLUS album.
I just love the sorrowness of the melody. I feel so alive… i wonder why…